Saturday, April 5, 2014

YOU'RE SO FAT.

Have you ever experienced being hurt because YOU'RE FAT? Did people treat you differently just because YOU'RE FAT?

Hi, I'm Katherine. I'm currently 5'1 and weigh 132 pounds. That's not really fat like the obese kind, but I was a chubby kid, but now I'm a teen, I'm still chubby.

I remember when I was a kid my playmates used to call me a "PIG" because I was chubby. I remember I cried a lot and went to my grandma for comfort. I live with my grandparents. My childhood was pretty awesome, but I still remember the days my playmates taunt me and call me a pig until I cry. I remember when I was in Grade 1, I was so happy to go to school. But I went home crying. Why? Because my classmate called me a pig for no apparent reason. I was a pig. Yeah, I get it.

Me when I was 9, with my 4 year old sis :)

Double chin, I know, I know xD



Now that I'm a teen, the pressure gets worse. I'm in highschool now, although I'm not being called a pig anymore, it still haunts me. I also feel the pressure to lose weight. My classmates who were once chubby like me in elementary, have now lost their baby fats. I'm thinking, if they can, why can't I?

I tried different workouts. Nothing seemed worked. I was stressed. I had no motivation to workout or to lose weight. I like me, but I think life would be a lot better if I lost weight. I tried this Lipo Cavitation thing(non-surgical) , but it still didn't work

But everything fell apart when the person who comforts you, who loves you, who cares for you, used to encourage you, calls you FAT. My grandma reminds me to lose weight every single day. Calls me a whale, thunder thighs, tells how big my arms are, and tells me to become vegetarian to lose weight. I HATE her for that. My grandpa tells the same too.

All I want to say is, "THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT! YOU'RE THE ONES WHO BUY FOOD AND WHO FED ME WHEN I WAS A KID! THIS IS YOUR FAULT!". I became stressed. I ate a lot. It became my pass time, to eat, and to sit on my computer all day reading articles on how to lose weight. I was 120. I gained 10 lbs. in just 3 months. I became a lot more stressed.

People around me didn't help either. I remember when I was walking with my classmates, we were having a conversation, and I said "Wow walking is a great way to lose weight". Then, a random stranger just butt in our convo then said, "Yeah you need to walk because you're fat". My former friends didn't help either. We would often go out and eat at McDonalds, KFC, and other fast food restaurants. Some of my friends would joke on my weight, it was funny at most times, but sometimes it hurts my feelings too. School work stressed the hell out of me. I have other experiences of strangers calling me fat, but I won't share here it anym

But after reading an article, I started to get motivated to work out. I started to really love me. I had the passion to lose weight not because of other people, but because of me. I wanted to become healthy. I wanted to live life.

I started to engage in sports. I started taking Figure Skating lessons. I also got in the school's volleyball team. I started to become happy. Workouts used to be a pain to me, but now I really enjoy working out. But there are times I feel lazy to work out, it happens :D . I started to control my eating, but  fast food days still exist, haha.

Photo taken recently, with Allison Harvard <3
I thank everyone who encourages me and doesn't see my flaws. I thank my parents for being there for me, even though they work abroad, they support me on no matter what I do. Thanks to my friends now who always make me laugh and loves me for who I am. I thank Katie McMahon for writing the article, "Out of (My) Body". That article changed my views on myself. It got featured on abcnews.go.com . It was entitled, "Teen Wanted Liposuction Until She Got It". (to read the article, go to http://www.rookiemag.com/2014/03/out-of-body/ )

My family. I love my mom, dad, bro and sis!
Friends :)

I also want to remind everyone to be careful on every word you say to someone. Parents and other family members should support the child and not pressure them into something and call them mean names. It haunts them and it makes them insecure.What parents' say can affect your child the most. Support your child in weight loss by cooking healthier foods at home, playing with them outside, jogging with them, supporting them in sports they want to engage in, etc.

 Weight loss also starts Within YOU. You cannot lose weight when you're not fully motivated and convinced you want to really lose weight. Do not feel pressured to lose weight just because others say so. You're beautiful in your own way. Please, please do not starve yourself. Start eating healthy.


5 comments :

  1. Bea, thank you so much for sharing your personal story. I wish I would've had a friend like you when I was a teenager! You are brave and so smart and a great writer.

    You are right in saying that your family should not have picked on you and called you names. Your grandparents are supposed to love you and support you in every way. You have every right to be angry at them and the stupid kids you made fun of you at school.

    You really nailed it on the head when you wrote that you want to become healthy and live life. I have to remind MYSELF that every day. I want to exercise and eat healthy foods because I want to feel good and live a long time!

    Every picture on here of you is absolutely beautiful. You are inspirational and I'm so happy you wrote this! Thank you!

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    1. Thanks for having the time to read and comment on this. It means a lot. Sorry for some errors, English is not my native language, tried to do it as best as I can :)

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    2. Don't be sorry. It is awesome!

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  2. Oops! Your name is Katherine Bea, not just Bea. :)

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